Wednesday, March 07, 2012

Life and All of Its Choices!

The times in our lives and the times that we tend to value it, are when 'STUFF' happens. It is human nature to become complacent and although I try my best to not be that way, of course I have been.

I had some shocking news that I would not like to air on the airwaves, but suffice to say that it has brought me down to earth with a massive boom. The personal experiences that I have had in my life have prepared me somewhat to deal with what has happened, but the biggest support I continue to have are from my family. Don't worry, this is not an issue about my health or well-being, but has an emotional bearing on me and my life.

I am getting the support and giving the support where it is needed and I am so happy to be able to say that my family are quite frankly fantastic. Honesty in my family has always been the strong point and continues to excel to this day. Honesty has set me free in all areas of my life and it has allowed me to become the person that I am today. I am proud of the integrity that I live my life with and I hope that transcends to all of my friends and colleagues that I encounter in all areas of my life.



LFC............they are driving me mad at the moment. They play so well right up to the 18 yard box, then nothing! We need a goalscorer and until that happens, we will continue to struggle to score unless Suarez and Carroll can all of a sudden recreate some magic and start scoring. Downing, too, has to start putting the ball in the net. I hope we can progress in the FA Cup and get to the final and have another wonderful final to watch. The Carling Cup Final drove me mad and almost killed me...............lol. We won, but Liverpool made me grit my teeth right to the end.

Great news on the job front. I have been told that I will finish out the school year where I am at and that means I will have a full year of teaching experience to add to my resume at the start of next year. I am thrilled to continue to be learning and to grow as a teacher and an educator. I have my moments when I am a bit annoyed with the kids and a bit stressed, but overall I love what I am doing and continue to forge relationships with all of my students and try to help them succeed in their academic travails.








My part-time job is going great. Rid of It Junk Removal. I have worked there for going on about 6 months and I started full-time and now work every weekend. When school finishes at the end of June, I will be working full-time all summer as I don't get paid for the 10 weeks we get off as a teacher. That will only happen if and when I get a full-time permanent position, which might take a while. I can wait! The job at Rid of It is physical and I love that about it. I also have gotten to know Toronto so well.....inside out, really. We travel as far north as Vaughan and as far east as Pickering, west to Burlington or Oakville and cover the whole of the GTA central. I love meeting people and going to their houses and dehoarding them of all their stuff. I feel like I am contributing to cleaning up society and also enjoy the workout.

Talking about workouts...........I am back on the health wagon again after slumping badly over the last 4 months or so. I need to eat healthier and have the new motto now, taken from the show, The Biggest Loser: NO MORE EXCUSES!!!

There will be no more excuses and I will be the healthiest I can be without being obsessed about it as I have been for many years. I need to balance exercise with good eating habits and good rest habits. The rest will fall into place.

John and I are going to see Iron Maiden!!! Can't wait, dude. I have loved Maiden all my life and now have the opportunity to go see them with Alice Cooper as the back-up............bonus!

Also will be going to see The Scorpions, both concerts are in July, so July is going to be an awesome month............can't wait.

The weather is supposed to go up to +11 today from -15 on the weekend. Looks like spring is just around the corner and sneaking its beautiful head out! I am looking forward to lighter mornings and longer nights. This is going to be a great spring and summer and I have nothing but ambition to look forward to. All the best to all of you and stay safe and healthy.

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Surviving all the doubts of life!

People say, whoever those people are, that writing your feelings helps you get some clarity in your everyday thoughts. Well, I guess those people never talked to someone that was too lazy to write!
I have been struggling the last few months to really get a grip of what I want to do and what I need to do and what it is that I am really doing...........................

Don't get me wrong, this is not me whining or complaining, but I just don't know what it is I am trying to put my finger on. It seems at times that I am very happy and focused with my life and then boom....................I am confused and second guessing myself about everything. Why? What is it that I want for myself? Does anyone else feel this way? I mean, I know that people suffer with this form of stress constantly, but I guess I am just asking if it is as bad as I do?

I like my life at the moment, but feel there is something missing.................but what? I know that not having any friends to hang out with is bothering me, but I am hoping that will change sometime soon, once the weather breaks and I can go out more often and actually meet people while I am out and about.

I am not interested in having a girl-friend at all. Listen to me, like I could pick and choose to have one or not.........lol. I just want to have some friends to hang out with and shoot the shit and maybe get drunk and go karoake or stuff. At the present time, I have none of that and maybe that is because I need to try harder or just get out of the house once in a while!









Ageing is one thing that I constantly struggle with. Am I attractive still with all the wrinkles and the drooping.....lol. Am I able to attract a nice woman, do I have enough to warrant interest..........I know it sounds ridiculous, as I always preach that confidence comes from within, but all I am doing is getting it out and writing down what I feel sometimes. I don't feel like this all the time, but it is the creeping in of these feelings that is beginning to bother me. Am I just bored? Do I need to do more or less or what...................



Anyway, enough for now. I am not the type to harp on myself constantly, although according to my family, I am always complaining......................lol. I guess I need to work on that and work on that and work on that and work on that....................fuck!





I am going to try and blog a bit more and make it available on Facebook. I think it will be a little bit more therapeutic if I do that. Oh yeah, I am going to London this weekend and going out for the first time in about 4 months to a place with women in it...........how sad is that! Maybe I will get my mojo back.......hope so.....and Liverpool had better win the Carling Cup and bring us a long awaited trophy back to the showcase with the others. YNWA.



Peace out, everyone!